1. Coincidence - you hear a song, see a photo somewhere
and somehow it catches your attention.
2. Curiosity - you're getting curious and you dig deeper.
3. Absorbing - you read, listen or watch things about the subject.
4. Illumination - as you absorbe you notice fascinating details
and think "This is magic, this is charisma and this is special".
5. Fascination - you can't stop thinking about the fascinating details
(smile, voice, that one special face expression in that moment
or anything about the image of the subject), you have them in front
of your eyes all the time and you can't get rid of them,
you don't want to because it feels fresh, it feels new,
it feels exciting and it gives you inspiration so you... continue the digging.
6. Absorbing #2 - you're researching and finding (surprisingly)
more fascinating details, this time about the personality of the subject.
7. Denial - you're trying to convince yourself you're not fascinated,
you're just interested and the subject can't be so perfect.
8. Imitating - you want to be like your subject, you're wearing the same clothes,
want to have the same hair, you're starting to make the same expressions
as your subject, imitating the accent, way of walking,
smiling. You believe in what the subject believes.
9. Submission - the end of denial. You know you're fascinated,
you feel good with being submissive, moreover, you not only
want to be like the subject, you want to spend your life with the subject,
have children, live together.
10. Hurt - you want to be with the subject but you can't
so you're hurt but you learn to live with it because you love the subject.
11. Cure - you find a different subject, a better one
or you change your way of looking at your subject.
With time the subject becomes less attractive,
you appreciate all the inspiration you got and you're still getting it
but you're free and the god becomes a mortal man.